(beach photo as requested, more to follow)
When the alarm went off at 5am today I sprung out of bed like a child on Christmas waiting to see the delights of the season. I quickly showered, and got in my car. In my nervousness, proceeded to leave the hotel without my yoga mat. Fortunately my obsessive compulsive side built in time for bonehead moments like this and I went back to my room and got my gear. As I drove from La Jolla to Encinitas, the sun was just rising over the mountains and even my rent a wreck seemed like a glorious beast of an automobile. Life was grand.
I arrive way too early to the studio and sat for a bit before checking in. As with all yoga studios, I had to fill out a waiver. Here is where my anxiety set in. I had no problem with the medical waiver but the “we have the right to photograph and use all images” struck me. There is no shame for me in being new to Ashtanga. It is an exciting learning process. However having an image of say my rear up in the air, didn’t really warm my heart especially since I was in a group of happy buzzing 2% body fat yogis could have been an ad for Lululemon. The water in Encinitas has some sort of beauty magic in it I swear!! Then I started to look around me and it hit me that everyone seems to be friends here. DUH ~ I was in a room of ashtanga INSTRUCTORS. Many of these people have spent time in India together. On one hand that excited me as I am inspired by the people around me in yoga on the other I wanted to run and hide in the bathroom. The only thing that I had going for me was that I had the courage to spend a week with this group in order to better myself and my practice. And at that moment, the courage was slipping away. No one wants to be the bottom of the bell curve.
Upon reflection, I realize that this was like the first day of school for everyone except some people were already friends. No one could sit still. Everyone had on there best smiles and big happy eyes waiting for class to start. Everyone was thrilled and honored to be in that room. My anxiety was horribly misplaced. The only difference between all of us was the varying degree that we could get into the postures.
The room had about sixty people in it. It was packed to capacity. When Sharath entered, it fell silent. Then the magic happened. Instantly everyone was perfectly lined up and Sharath lead us with the “OM”. Sixty people filled every millimeter of space in that room with the sound of pure joy. As a recovering Catholic, the best I can equate it to is during specific religious ceremonies (say in Notre Dame) a full choir including a bell choir, with great beauty and zealousness would sing in a way that would give you goosebumps. Although I am new to Ashtanga, I am not new to yoga or other Eastern practices and that was the first moment I could comprehend the power and mysticism of the meaning of “OM”. I felt absolute peace. All the inner chatter about “what if I can’t” dissolved. As we continued into the opening chant I felt simultaneously uplifted and joyous. I completely let go of any expectations and was totally in the moment.
A few observations about the class itself:
1. It passed in a heartbeat. Before I knew it the woman to my right had her foot above my head in the part of Utthita Hasta Padangusthasana where you move your leg to the side (no not kidding she was amazing and I am almost 5’8″) Yes it was 1.5 hrs but the energy in the room was so upbeat we seemed to fly through the series.
2. Navasana isn’t the only pose that Sharath likes to hold. He is also enjoys strong Chaturanga Dandasanas and we stopped for each one and held. My silly noodle excuse for arms loved that!!!
3. The room was never warm or humid and I sweat more than I did in most of the five years of Birkram yoga. I was drenched, sweat all over my mat, the floor, etc.. I didn’t notice it until I put my head down in Baddha Konasana and dumped water from my forehead into my feet. I must have looked like a train wreck but felt great!!
4. In class we always lay straight back for shavasana. I always thought that was odd as showing the bottoms of your feet to someone is considered disrespectful by many cultures. Now this could be just because I am an American learning Ashtanga in America where we don’t have a culture issue with feet. About 1/4 of the class turned around for shavasana. I thought that was a nice touch. Sharath didn’t ask anyone to do it. It was simply done out of respect.
5. Sharath is as nice and friendly and approachable as I was told. He has a combination of demand for hard work and humor at the same time. I understand why everyone was so excited to see him.
Of course tomorrow is day two. I had several days of rest before day one but if it is 1/2 as great I will still be crazy thrilled!