August 18, 2010
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Hmmm…
I have now had three people say the same thing to me. They have each said that what happened when I was a child was sad. Now, I don’t think of it like that at all. I have a level of disassociation with everything that happened. I guess that is my defense mechanism. It doesn’t seem real if you simply recall the facts.
When someone tells you that a piece of your life was sad that changes things. Then you have someone emoting about something that happened to you. You invited them in, they were honest and you have to choose to accept or reject that thought.
Hmmm was what happened sad? Yes, it was. I accept what they said. I just didn’t think I would be so troubled by this. I am sad because someone else was sad about something that happened to me?!? I guess I still like that level of distance.
